My Lips Are Fucking Awesome;)

Mon, 23 May 2005 18:35:18 GMT

So Basically if life doesn't drastically change in the next few days, im probably going to die. And no.. im not over-exaggerating.

First of all this weekend sucked. I come home, im in a bad mood and my mom tells me i cant get my tatoo anymore. And normally this would just piss my off but instead i just start hysterically crying, again .. and go in my room and lay down trying to erase everything thats going on but that doesnt work. I went online for a while, had a very pleasent conversation and then basically just went back in my room and cryed myself to sleep. Im definitly not ever like this. I never cry over stupid shit like guys, but for some reason i cant control it. These past three days have been non-stop crying and its basically pathetic. My grades are slipping and my mom is all on my case about that and i basically have a new curfew, well actually a curfew becuase i never actually had one until now. This is probably the last time im on the computer until my grades go up and now no amount of convincing is going to get me my tatoo.
I hate fighting with my mom. Especially when she hasn't really done anything except decide to yell at me when im in a bad mood. I hate that she doesnt just leave me alone when Im like this and leave all my problems till the end of the week when i feel better although feeling better seems impossible right now.
I hate when people come up to me and ask if im mad at them. Im not mad at anyone im just upset about everything and i dont want to talk to anyone or have to re-tell all my problems over and over again just to hear the same pity shit. I dont want pity i just want to be left alone until i sort everything out, and right now that just seems impossible because regardless of how shitty i feel i still have to go to school and see everyone and just be reminded of why im upset again.And im not saying that i dont appreciate everything you girls have said and done to try and cheer me up, because i do. I just feel like i need to be left alone for a while so i can just be upset and get over everything.
I fucking hate life. Everything that could possibly go wrong has and i can't fucking handle it. This isnt how any of this is sapposed to happen and its tearing my apart.

Mon, 09 May 2005 19:26:44 GMT

Heyy Bitches!

Sinco de Mayo, total BUSTT but i love Christina and Jessie Lee and fuck the rest of you girls who are just too cool for us now and decide to be dumb and work, or not have freaking rides!Just Kidding, we totaly made up for it this weekend and our amazing Friday Night.

Kelly's was fun, then me, clam, shav, and soph went to Club 11 and just had a freaking amazing time. Some more Carmel girls showed up, two of which are some of my favorite people ever!(Jackkie and Ann) Ha, Whip Cream, Tequilla Body Shots, CrandberryVodka, Alabama Slammers .. Ahhhh what a night!! Love you Ladies.

Me and Fok are gonna go to the baseball game in a little bit, gotta sapport our KM. This weekend i'm going up to Boston to see Pein, I can't even wait!!Should be a crazzy time.

<3 Linds

Tue, 03 May 2005 23:42:49 GMT

Hey Everyone ..

To sum up Prom, it was funnn.I love Jenna and Jackie and all of our amazing crazy pictures!!You girls are awesome.

Sunday, Came home from Saratoga and hung out at Timmy and Lisa's for the afternoon.I Can't even wait till September 10th? so we can party down to loveshack!!

Monday:
Me clam soph and christina went to scoops and ate a lot of ice cream, then walked clambam home and i hung out with grej for a while. We went to go watch Kyle's game for a bit and saw Eric Zigggy(who is awesome and i love)However, it started raining so we got a ride home and were just lazzy for the rest of the day.
That night, Chinkk Night At Shav's house!
I looooveee all of you girls more than anything.You are my bestfriends and i wouldnt trade any of you for the fucking world.Fok,Jess,Soph-wish you couldv'e came=(

My Mom is finally home which makes me soo happy.I missed her soo much while she was gone. I havent seen her in like two weeks so its good to get in some good quality bonding time with big suee!I'm gonna try and go to Boston soon too cause i miss my Pein a lot!!!

I hope everyone had fun at prom and a good weekend!
Everybody better post pictures!

xOLinds

Prom is Today!

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 16:07:46 GMT

Heyy everyone!

So prom is officially today, and im really excited because im going with the coooolest kid ever!
But yeah, anyone who was going to prom today got out early, which was freakin AWESOME! Soo i just left after an invigorating Math class with Sophie! Andd now im home, wondering how to occupy myself until my hair appt. becuase i don't understand how everyone is starting to get ready now when prom starts in like 7 hours!iidkkkk...

But tonight is gunna be AMAZINGGGGG, Can't even wait.

xoLinds

Blahhhh ..

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 18:17:49 GMT

So Last night wasn't such a fun night. I got myself all upset and was over-analyzing everything to the extreme. I'm just soo confused with eveything and always wonder why things can never go right.
Today,The thought of being in school for another second was just not what i needed so I Came home after 2nd period, and went and got a manicure/pedicure which never fails to cheer a girl up.

I love Kyle Mahoney more than anything. He is such an amazing friend and he made me feel so much better last night. I'm the biggest asshole in the world though and forgot his birthday on Sunday, but i think i made up for it with lots of Skitles=)

I'm honestly, going to give up on the Male-sex soon.

<3 Lindsay

Spring Break 05' Babyy!!

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 23:03:18 GMT

Wow, where to even start. Spring Break was amazing. Turks and Caicos is beatiful and the weather was perfect except for one little tornado that happened yesterday.

Our days pretty much consisted of eating and laying arond tannning, on the beach at the pools at oter resorts pools and pretty much anywhere we could. At night we went to this amazing bar and made bestfriends with every bartender in the resort so that was a plus. We danced our asses off and consumed as much crandberry&vodka as we could without sending ourselves to the hospital.Annnd my new favorite shot ever,Alabama Slammers from grossss men old enough to be our fathers. I definitly have all rights my Drunk identity name now, because i, Sarah, conquered a gay man!Haha oooooh what a trip.

Grej' i love you.
I'm gonna miss my Latin Lover, =( the greatest dancer in the whole world more than anything.
"Make Sex .. Lesbianas .. 19&20 .. Gasolina .. Crystalll, you have to Roll the 'al' .. Ants .. Gregory .. Chocolate Ice Cream .. The Music Rock .. " And soo many more but i cant remember anyyyything.

I Hope everyone had an amazing Break, i missed you all!!

<3 Lindsay

It's offically Spring Breakkkkk! =)

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 02:14:50 GMT

Allright, Props to Laura on my layout.
I think im a fan but everyone should comment and let me know if its a keeper or not!

So Right now, its 10:10 and im still awaiting the arrival of Sophie Grejair, because i wanna go to bed-cause our car is coming at 4 in the am to take us to paradise nd i am exausted nd shes still home freaking packing. Typical Soph!

Today was gooooood. Hung out with John for a little bit, then went out to dinner with my favorites! I love all you guys-i'll miss u a lotttttt while im gone, PARTY IT UP, KEEP IT GULLYYYY!!!!

<3 Lindsay

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 19:02:12 GMT

I really want a new layout and Jessie Lee is totaly slacking with making me one. Anyone wanna do it for me??
-Leave comments!

2 Days Bitchesss!

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 18:55:27 GMT

Hello loves,

Life's been pretty good, Same old shit as usual. I've been so confused this past week, sorting everything out and trying to not get caught up with boys and highschool drama. I guess i need to just play things out instead of always having some planned out,perfect life.

I wen't to the boys baseball game yesterday with Clam Bam and Shavo, i love those girls and the big KM had a very nice home run=)

I can't wait until Saturday morning, this vacation is so needed. I need to get away, relax and come back 100% African American. I'm gonna miss all you guys so much, I'll send postcards and me and Grej' will buy you bitches presents!
*Kimmy, i wish you could come.I love you a lot, and whenever you get bummed just think of how kickass we were today in Colclough's with our presentation!=)Love you fok, we'll take you in spirit!

Allright, well hopefully im going to the mall in a bit, need some last minute things for break!

I hope everyone has an amazing time
& drinks lotsssss of fun frozen beverages! haha

xOLinds

Blllahhhhh...

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 22:05:35 GMT

Hey Bitches!Havent updated in a really long time it feels like.

Soo hmm .. Friday after school, me and Jessie Lee went car shopping!!! We found the hottest most amazing car ever and she bought it and im sop excited.Then we went and got some Iceeee, which was probably the best thing ever, and then went tanning.
That night, wen't to Vig's with the girls,had an amazing time!Clam our apple vodka, Cock just carrying around her 18 pack, me bugggging out on soph because she picked Andrews freakin carrot over my peach! Veryyy eventful night. Love you ladies=)

Saturday, i went to Hoboken?Idk how to spell it lol .. But thats where Harold and Kumar live!so it was a good time. Then i went to Long Island to visit the fam and i got to see my pein! I miss her so much, 3 months is honestly way too long to go without seeing my sister.We went for a walk and had a little chat to catch her up on my life, which was much needed. I love her more than life.

I missed my Kimmy this weekend.Shes pretty much dying and has a frog throat but i really wished i couldve hung out wiht her this weekend. Love you fok!

Spring Break is offically 6 Days away, I cannnnot even wait!

Ecstatic!!!!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 22:15:44 GMT

Once apon a time, Sophies's flipping through the channels,
turns on MTV, Cribs is on .. and guess who's house there showing ..
the one i sold to Moby!
I'm like Buggin out .. this is so nutsoo.
Everybody better watch the re-runs so they can see it!=)

Oooh PS:10 Days till Turks & Cacos!!

xoLindsay

Put the lime in de Cooookkkkeunuuut!

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 16:55:59 GMT

i just wanna say that friday nights are so much better spent at friendly's then going out. hahaha

sooo. yesterday i went to kim's game with the girls for awhile and then i went back to kim's house and waited for her to get ready to go to sophie's.Her brother is probably my most favorite person ever. for about 3 hours we were trying to make plans to do something and go out but it just wasnt our night.we gave up and just went to friendly's w/these awesome boys=). haha. ate amazing icecream and left around 11 ish. came back to soph's to watch harold and kumar go to white castle and i must say that is my favorite movie ever. never gets old. sam left this morning so me soph and kim are awaiting the arrival of sophies mom to take us to georges because we are STARVIN'!!!

well... hopefully tonight will turn out better then last night did. im excited for kayleigh's party it should be a good time.

xOLinds

P.S. yo' breaf is kickin'!

17 Days till Amazingness ..

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 02:41:16 GMT

Wow, so today was definitly a reality boost and i needed to kick myself in the ass and get in gear. Spring Break is so soon and to ensure that i look as good as mi amiga Sophie Grejair and her massive "assets" i've decided to be on a strict 17 day plan of South Beach'ing and excersize.Hopefully, it will work!

Tits n Ass fo' life! im soo excited. This will definitly top Atlantis becuase were not p-words anymore & we know to take full advantage of the all inclusive drink policy! Ahh i cant wait.

17 More Days ...

<3 Lindsayy

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 20:45:21 GMT

Yesterday, it rained so much and so hard, i thought the world was ending. When we were driving home, i thought the car was gunna life off the road and fly away with me and Big-Jim in it.

Ookay, so last night i was reading all of my wonderfull comments on my journal and someone tells me that i should kill myself because the world we better a better place without me in it. Nice right? so that put me in a really good mood along with many other annoying things so I decided to clear shit up with Kim which was much needed.

Allthough, everythind was cleared up, there was still so much shit going on in my head and i couldnt sleep so i called up my best friend Kimberly Ann Frost and had a nice long chat with her. I really miss that girl. We used to be like inseperable and hang out all the time, i wish it was still like that. I'll never forget this summer, LBI and Old Forge, amazing times Foker, i love you with all my heart.

I watched the notebook again this weekend. Idk why .. i really need to stop watching that because it makes me feel so alone. I really wish i had someone to talk to and cuddle all the time. ahhh, one of these days.

<3 Lindsay

PS. Boom Boom is freaking awesome.Lessthanthreeee

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 03:21:14 GMT

Ookay Read this..
and then try to explain to me how this is even remotly posisble.

How can someone be a slut one minute and then the next minute be told they can't get ass?

Im just confused so maybe someone could explain that to me?

<3 Lindsay

PS Kimmy Fro now has a livejournal so everyone better checkkkk it out && Comment to be Added!

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 02:45:13 GMT

Well this has been an eventful week allready and its only Tuesday.

I didn't feel like going to school today at all. I woke up and just couldnt bear the though of getting out of my comfy bed so i just rolled over and woke up around 12ish.

I've come to the conclusion that i am sooo happy i found like 10 girls im really close with, and can tell anything too and always have amazing times with because I HATE other girls.There is so much drama and they are all just bitches and i can't handle it.

I've also come to the conclusion that i have anger problems.I get these crazy adrenaline rushes and seriosuly i turn into the hulk, no joke. Last night .. i punched my closet door? idk what i was thinking .. People just make me mad.

My mom completley broke down yesterday and started crying because we got a leak in our laundry room and before i knew it we were on the topic of me moving to Saratoga?Idk it was just crazy and i felt really bad for her but at the same time i was angry for her bringing up my Dad and me moving in with him. It seems like whenever things dont go right shes like "ooh go move in with your dad." and that makes me really mad. She knows i dont wanna live in Saratoga and she just uses it against me non stop. I feel like im being insensitive but im not going to be nice to someone especially when they are just making me mad. I really wish sometimes my parents were still together it would make things a hell of a lot easier.

Tonight, i got into yet another fight with my dear crackhead. I love that kid to death but he just gets me bummed out sometimes. i know if he reads this he'll probably get mad at me for writing about him but he'll just haev to suckkk it up! Idk, i just always get emotional when it comes to him because we fight and then make up and its just a lot to handle. But i love him and hes going to be stuck with me whether he likes it or not.

this weekend should be fun .. Roger's Thursday and then Sarah Mora freakin Bito's Birthday on Friday Night. Should be an amazing time.
I think i have to go to Saratoga on Saturday for Big Jim's birthday. I'm really excited to see Erin .. i miss that girl a lot.

I'm trying to be strong and stay away. I promised myself i would be done with all of this and i am. But 5 Days is a long time to not talk to someone. Ooh well, what can ya do.

(I hope this is to your reading pleasures Grejair.)

<3 Lindsay

I love my girlsss!

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 17:39:10 GMT

Allright, So .. Not this wasnt the weekend i was hoping for, but whatever shit happens.

Soo Friday Night, me clam and soph picked up Kim and went to see the Ring2. I liked it but,the other 3 really didnt. 20$ and sooo much candy later, we left and went back to kimmy's for a hardcore girls night!!

Screwdrivers+Captain&Coke do not mix well with Goldfish!
(Clam had to learn that one the hard way!)

Alsoo.. Next time i decide to drink while im upset about something, im definitly turning off my phone.

Ooh well, ill learn one of these days.

<3 Lindsayy

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 00:45:35 GMT

Whats up Bitches!

So last night i went to Jessie Lee's with Soph and Shav. It was a good time .. watched some sex and the city and baked.

Today, we went to the mall with Joey,Eric,Jed and Jackie. Tried on some bathing suits for SB .. Soph got a few cute ones and Me and Jackie these two amazingly hot shirts. Then i took Jackies ID, cause we look so much alike,lol .. and got yet another ear peircing ..Just to shake things up a bit ..
Tonight, im gonna go to Kim's with Soph and maybe Clammy .. Hopefully go see the Ring Two!

Ooh, and by the way .. i've decided to get over you.
I guess i should've known this was coming--too good to be true, broken plans and just a waste of my time.

PS..I'm really not a big fan of girls who find it necessary to talk about me.

<3 Lindsay

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 21:07:03 GMT

SoOo Yesterday, went to the city with Kim,Cait,Jill,Kimmy,Amanda,Elmo,Evan and Tim ..

TGIF .. Fridays! was amazing. Our poor waiter, we probably got him fired and we gave him like a two dollar tip but he was awesome cause apparently you dont need id's anymore lol

Then we went to the show and saw these two really bad bands and then finallllly ..Ms.Ashlee Simpson.Shes amazing and idc what anyone else says, she has a reallly good voice and she does not even lip sinc.We got these VIP stamp things so we could go up front in this reserved area, too bad i just licked kimmy's hand and restamped it on mine otherwise i was gonna ahve to stand with the squooshed bitches in the middle.ooh boy.

The limo ride home was so much fun until we all passed out and then woke up to Amanda turning on all the lights and her beautiful voice! Thank god our driver stopped, a break and some food was much needed!

Anyways, i love Ashlee Simpson, shes hot.

Peace out Bitches,
xo*

Ps.. tomorrow is Mikey Dob's Birthday/St.Patricks Day .. you know what that means!! ;)

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 18:19:12 GMT

Honestly, Today couldn't get any worse.

My Dad just called. I havent talked to him scince last week when we got into this big fight that i can't even remember what was about. But it ended with us cursing at eachother and him hanging up. So when i didnt hear from him until today, i just got all upset again. Tears were shed and we just left it on a bad note, once again.

My back is seriosuly so hurt. I can't even move or sit down without it hurting. My pelvic bones are not even lined up at all and my back and neck are all twisted. I cant even move and to top it all off .. I find out Monday if i made softball and at this rate i dont even know if i can play with my back like this. I guess i'll just have to load up on the pain killers before i play each day.(if i make it that is .. i really hope i do.)

And .. I also just took Caitlin von Hagen's quiz thing .. and i like bombed it. It's a good thing she's one of my best friends and i dont even know the answers to her freakin quiz. That just cheered me up.

Ahh .. thank god im going to see Ashlee Simpson Tuesday with the girls. I really need some freakin cheering up.

</3

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 17:18:19 GMT

Ookay so last night .. basically every plan we had fell through but it honestly didn't matter at all ..
We all just went to Grejair's and had an amazing girls night.

Jessie Lee's little suprise this morning haha .. Ooh man .. to sum it up, we all thought she shit the bed
--but it was really just melted chocolate allllll over the sheets!It was probably the funniest thing ever.

Ooh man .. i love you girls soo much.We're getting soo close and its amazing becuase you 7 are my life and thats just bloddy redonkulous.

PS-Sophie Grejair = head master.

Keep it Gully!
<3

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 02:27:23 GMT

Heyy everyone, This journal is going to be dedicated to all of my amazing friends just so they know how much i love em'.

-Eric freaking Ziggy is awesome i lovee him therefor .. he is my blood brother/life coach.We're both going through the same shit and its just good to have someone to always talk to.(fokker,i love you too of course.)

-Joey,Matt and Kyle .. you boys are amazing and im soo glad that we are all hanging out more. You guys are seriosuly sooo awesome & your all hott too, so thats a plus haha ;)

-Crackhead, i love you even though you can be a big Vagina Lip At times! Prom is gunna be amazaing and i live watchign family guy wiht you!!!<3

-Big Rannd, your amazing. You cheered me up so much the other day. I was totaly bummed and you just made it all better. Your like my freakin brother and i love you a lott! Thankss

-Jessie Lee and Sam, you two girls are fucking awesome. I dont even understand how i lived before you guys. Whenever we are together its a guarenteed good time and you both are rapidly becoming two of my bestest friends!=)Lovee you

The other 4,you know i love you. Fokk, grej, shrop, von =)
Grej;Hashabla for life.I love Black people and lesbians!

K well im done now ...I dont feel like writing about my life becuase nothing new ever happens so i wont bore you with the minor details.

PS. Kyle freakin Mahoney is amazing and hot and listens to Brucee!

<3

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 02:13:27 GMT

Ookay so after being in the car for what seemed like a million years, I finally am home.

This weekend was really good. I went to my house in Old Forge for the weekend with my Dad. It was really good to hang out with him because i really never do. I'm always with my friends and i never see him or talk to him and i really miss it a lot.
We did a lot of snowmobiling and my back is now officaly broken.

Today, was decent. I went to school, then Kyle Kim nd Jess came over and we just hung out for a bit. Then my Dad and step mom came home and just annoyed me a lot so we left and went to the deli. While we were like paying .. the freaking step mom walks in and just annoyed me even more.Like i dont understand why but everything she does or says just gets me really mad. Idkk i think i just need to chill out ..

So then i forgot my health history form nd couldnt play today at try-outs which blew. I hope i can still make the team. =/

So i come home,got into a big fight with my dad about the most ridiculous things and i really just cant stand him.

Thank god for Caitlin VonHAgen and JessieLee. I was definitly like pouring my heart out to them at softball and telling them about all of my problems and how screwed up i think i am. It just made me bummed out even more but it was good to get all that stuff off my chest.
I love you too .. thank youu!

Idk,Jill Shroppy made the most sense out of everyone and shes now my life coach for everything.=)

Leave me messages bitches!
<3

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 22:26:08 GMT

"When im in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then i know my heart is whole.
Theres a million reasons why i cry,
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cause i dont want to be alone ..

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you."

--Wow, im hopeless ..But you know what, It's good to know im not alone on this. My Kimm is insane too =).

Also, March 15th .. Ashlee Mother fuckin Simpson!!!!!
Im so excited. Kim,Jilly,Von ..Its going to be Amazinggg ;)

</3

I loveee Snoww!

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 02:27:19 GMT

Soo thank god for snow this week. It made school go by so much faster, which is always a good thing.

Today, was the first day of softball. I'm really glad i decided to do it cause theres a bunch of people trying out so it should be a good time. Jessie Lee has an amazing arm and kind of hurt my hand =( But oooh well ill get over it,lol.

Then .. i came home and went to the gym with the lovely Kim Healy and took an amazing Ab class. Then her mom schooled me with our arm workout and im going to be really sore tomorrow, i can feel it!lol

soo right now, im listening to some Alanis and discusing Spring Break with my Grejair.Ahh im soo excited.Kf you will be there in spirit!;)

Also, everyone needs to comment to be added, because my friend list is seriosuly slacking!

<3